Man, sometimes you think you know when you've found the right one [right one as in your soul mate, your best friend, your confidant, your other half] but you never do. Well, that is if you're single. I have been single for the majority of my life and there has been one person I saw myself walking down the aisle with. I could picture everything when I closed my eyes. He made me happy. He made my heart skip a beat, made my cheeks blush and made me smile just by saying my name.
He had a way about him that made my day. I saw my phone light up and the world melted away as if I was stuck in a movie. I was standing there by myself with him on the other line. No one heard me and no one saw me. I saw everything and everyone, but no one knew I existed when we talked. He once told me this. "It is you and me now, Jennifer." After that moment I let my guard down slowly but surely. I remember everything about him. He will never leave my thoughts or my heart. Everyday I think of him. I have made a vow to my friends and myself that once I find someone that makes me feel the way he made me feel I will not let go and I will not let it get away without giving him my whole heart again.
I feel that we only fall in love one time, but we love many times. Obviously he wasn't the right man for me and there is another man there for me, but it sure does seem impossible. The dating game and men in general seem lack luster to me at this point. I am only 22 years old and that is something a lot of women my age let slip from their mouths. I should be happy that I am single and do not have to answer to anyone or so my friends say. I see the opposite side of that logic. I see that as not having to answer to anyone, but having someone to come home to and someone to be there for me when I need it most. Now don't get me wrong friends can fill that void until a certain point and then you're obviously not going to spend the rest of your life with a friend that isn't a romantic partner. Or at least in my world things don't work like that.
I have longed for the feelings I had with him. With the man that forever changed my life and changed my outlook on love and my future. I have came to the realization that it would never have worked. We wanted different things out of life. We were at different points in our life and it would not have meshed well. He is happy now and I am still searching.
I am searching for the moment my heart skips a beat and my cheeks start to blush at the same time. The moment where I feel as if the world has melted away and it is just me and him looking outside at the world. When we finish our lives together. That will be the most amazing ending to a storybook romance, huh?
Marry Me: Train
Forever can never be long enough for me
To feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry Me
Today and every day
Marry Me
If I ever get the nerve to say "Hello" in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love you
And you're beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say "Hello" in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Promise me
You'll always be
Happy by my side
I promise to
Sing to you
When all the music dies
And marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say "Hello" in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Marry me
Mm-hmm
Two hints that will let you know who I am talking about [that is if you know me].
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